Not always perfect...

I scrambled around. I’d hiked to the fire tower, then back down to my usual spots. I wasn’t patient though. I’ve experienced this time, and time again; that the best sunsets are the late ones. The light always shows up. I just keep forgetting. I wish I wouldn’t, but I still do.

This image is soft. The focus is off. I wanted to far ridge and the clouds sharp, but they aren’t. They are soft. But that color, that framing, the balance, I can’t give up on that. Does every image have to be sharp and perfect in order to draw us in? No, it doesn’t. There are other ideas conveyed.

This summer, though only a few weeks old, has been a very interesting dichotomy of emotions and experiences so far. Ending the school on more than a few positive notes, it feels like there may be some genuine continuity and growth in my career for the next few years. It has been a long while since I could genuinely say that about my career.

Creatively, I feel like there are immense strides being made, too. As I look at the catalog of work only just a few years old, I’m quite happy with it’s growth, it’s diversity, and it’s quality. But, it’s not perfect, the summer that is. Hidden in it are the layers of parenting and the complexity that that brings. These are the points that weigh heaviest for me, the pieces that are trickiest to navigate. No, it’s not always perfect, and I wouldn’t want it any other way. But the challenge of watching your children struggle never gets any easier. Tanner is set to take on a new adventure. He wants to move. He needs new material, a new space to grow into. Andrew has been diagnosed with Epilepsy. Not an uncommon thing to happen in one’s late 20’s, but a thing hard to wrap our heads around as a family as it requires new dynamics and strength that we haven’t been able to gather for some time.

So no, it’s not always perfect. But, this is the only way it arrives. It’s up to us to decide what to do with it

PS This was supposed to be posted A LONG TIME AGO, but life happens.